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deetee46
01 October 2010 @ 04:58 pm
As the time goes on
I realize that everyone...
even you... moved on...
everyone except me...

I´m still stucked in the same place...
In the same room...
With the same question...

Why can´t I?
 
 
deetee46
05 September 2010 @ 11:35 pm
I´ve lost my way...
a long time ago...

maybe the day I was born...
maybe... even before...

Where do I go... now?
 
 
Current Mood: confusedconfused
 
 
deetee46
24 August 2010 @ 01:34 pm
...  

Face to face... we scream...

The hate of our hearts...

It grabs at our souls

Let it come...

Get lost in the darkness

Only your eyes are glowing...

 

Your vision becomes cloudy

Your lips suddenly cold...

 

Take me high

Take me low

Through the night

We will fall...


Fall with me


To the hell

You will see...

I can tell...

All the hate inside of us...

 
 
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: Hourcast - Stillwater
 
 
deetee46
28 May 2009 @ 02:51 pm
We have never spoken a word to each other, we’ve never been friends. But big part of me was longing for that to be true. And now, I’m standing here, among other mourners, and more and more questions emerge in my mind. Why? Why have you done that? Why you didn’t give me a chance? Why is it all over before it had a chance to begun?

Your mom came to me after the ceremonial, her eyes were bloodshot, and there were no tears left for her to cry for her beloved son. „Are you Zachary? “she asked and my heart stopped beating at that particular moment. How come she knows my name? „Y-Yeah...“ was all I could say. „I suppose this was for you...“she said quietly, nearly whispered. No matter how impossible it seemed, her eyes began to fill with tears again. She wedged small piece of paper to my hand and went away. Nothing else was said.

I was scared; my heart was beating like crazy... I opened that small piece of what was left of you... I started to read and I felt the tears burning in my eyes...

Zacky
Your look was like a breeze
that blown off candle of my intention.
Your smile was like a downpour,
that concealed my tears of mortification.
You were the one, the beloved,
but nevertheless hated.
You were what I missed in my life,
but you were unreachable.
You were the one I was dreaming about,
and what I was afraid of.
You were my light in the darkness,
but you were the reason of it.
You were the source of the most beautiful dreams
and most wicked nightmares…
 
 
Current Location: my bed
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Guns ´n Roses - Knockin´ on heaven´s door